Josephs Final Note For His Mother

I'll make this short so I won't waste your time, I promise. I'm sorry mom. for everything I did wrong. I'm sorry i couldn't make you proud. I promise you I always tried my hardest . I'm sorry I wasn't able to be the perfect son you always wanted. Like you said, i'm sorry I was born, I'm sorry I was a mistake. I'm sorry I wasn't good enough. I blame myself I could of done more. I don't blame you for not wanting me. I really don't. I just wish I could of had your love. But now that you know i'm transgender I know I will never earn your love.. I really hope I get to see you and my brothers on The Other Side. Hopefully you will love me then. Please tell the kids I love them with all my heart and soul and i will see them again some day. I will always be by their side protecting them, watching them. If they ask why still asleep just tell them i was really tired and need a lot of rest so you guys took me somewhere where I can sleep all i want. Goodnight mommy I Love You

- Joseph